Spiritual Initiations in Portugal : Death, Rebirth & Belonging

Over the past three years I have been on a quest for soul home, seeking clarity in where the next chapter of my life is meant to unfold. Exactly a year ago I went to Portugal-I was only there for three days, yet the synchronicities and symbiosis with the land finally answered my question, showing me that Lisbon was the next step in my journey. Last week I returned to Portugal to deepen my relationship with the country and begin planting seeds to anchor in this next timeline.

This trip was not what I expected, yet it was everything that I needed. What I anticipated would be a dreamy return turned out to be a necessary unraveling, a deep spiritual initiation. Cracked wide open, the land amplified everything in my life needing to be cleared, mirroring back to me all of my vulnerabilities and deepest fears. The realities of moving abroad alone came front and center. I struggled with the fears that have permeated my entire life of not belonging, of feeling isolated and alone. Waves of overwhelm and grief consumed me at times as I contemplated how I would handle again being the “outsider”, this time with no built-in support system.

When we are on the brink of great change, our ego resists. It clings to security, to stability, to what is familiar. As we move through the veil of the in between, our past self needs space to grieve what must die before the next version of us can emerge. It was in the depth of my shadow that I met my future self. She accompanied me through the moments of fear, guiding me towards the light waiting on the other side, speaking through synchronicities and blessings.

There was reconnection with soul friends and the meetings of kindred spirits.

My Libra soul came alive again through beauty, pleasure and a sense of awe in discovering a new country.

A dreamy photo shoot in the most magical locations honored my rebirth and next chapter of my spiritual business.

I connected to the land, offered her healing and received healing in return.

This trip reminded me of the sacredness of transformation. And that in this moment, I’m exactly where I’m meant to be.

Where in your own life are you standing on the precipice of a new beginning? What aspects of your past self are asking to be honored and released in order to create space for your future self to emerge?